exam syndrome

ok i know i said i’ll only blog after exams but i need a break from the books for a while, so pardon me.

exam’s making me jittery. and its worse than last year, i know i can never match the other bnf students so i kinda see no point? but on the other hand i need to do well and pull up my gpa too cos graduating with a second lower frm bnf just doesnt cut it. so you see the dilemma now?

these 2 weeks of preparation i felt like i lost myself, i smile less, talk less, socialise less and care less. and i almost didnt recognise myself anymore cos i was so depressed and down all the time. honestly, i think nobody can understand how i feel right now cos i’m not too sure myself as well.

totally signs of depression. i need professional help:(

disappearing act

tom365 is loveeee cos it has movies which i wanted to watch but couldnt watch cos i cant spare time for movies these days. i have 500 days of summer & my sister’s keeper on my qvod player waiting for me to click them after exams.

talking about exams..its 2 wks away and i havent started revising AT ALL. yes i do keep up with tutorials and all but its just different from a proper revision :O really scared this time, esp for my poor gpa. monday i’ll be freed from the LAST project (detestable bf214) and i shall go print many many past yr’s exam papers to practice.

there’s smth really wrong with my lappie. the usb drive is in coma or smth..it cant recognise my camera and cant recognise my cruzer thumbdrive! urgh there goes the photos i wanna upload and here goes anoher photo-less post:(

this year’s xmas decorations is VERY nice:D esp the purple xmas tree outside ion! omggg super tall, super purple and super blingz. plus there’s an opening to the inner part of the tree! its like stepping into blinding heaven, all the white light and bling bling. after exams i shall dress up and take lots of pictures there..hahahah was so eggcited abt it last night^^ ooo and there’s the candy house at tanglin mall too! JI CUTE<3

i shant blog anymore till end of exams. so this shall be my goodbye post *waves*
shall attempt to stay away from online devils like blogshops and facebook and wordpress.
goodbye civilisation

 

bad hair:(

am only gonna see don this coming saturday..that’ll be 2 wks since we last met? this is what happens when you have 2 very busy ppl put tgtr. will make it up after exams, right mr liew? hahaha(:

studied at coffeebean (ka fei dou HAHAH) holland v by meself again today after class. managed to read one thick fat chapter of investments and its tutorials..and i’ve been slacking ever since i got back home. i ate freaking alot of crap for dinner today:/ breadtalk, banana cake, durian mochi, honeydew. but omg the durian mochi my dad brought back from taka is YUMZ TTM. i’m growing sideways in an exponential rate man.

on a happier note, exams are 3 wks away. oh how eggciting.

i know i said this before but i really need a haircut. my fringe is so long its irritating and i end up having it hairband-ed/clipped most of the time. ji ugly seriously..

sunday@holland v

today, i ate lunch by myself in a hawker centre. SO KE LIAN! but it wasnt as bad as i thought..purposely went earlier to avoid the lunch-hour crowd XD. then i went to bk to studyyyyy. i think studying by myself is really quite productive (unless i’m doing bf214) and i kinda like it.

yup i’m such an anti-social.

pl and jeffrey joined me in the evening but i left a few hrs after they came cos i was whooper hungry! loved the food papi brought from indo(: and now i’m still stuck doing bf214 tutorial.

maybe i shall visit holland v aGain tmr after class?
argh ok every post is about studying i have such an unhappZ life:s

you, me, us.

this is SO secondary school but i like! ahhahaha i missed neoprints(:

finally i can take a breather..phew what a week! tmr morning there’s 214 presentation, fri afternoon 215 presentation and saturday is due date for 218 proj. and then after that i can catch up with tutorials and textbook readings. FINALLY. i really hate projcts, they can kill:O

 

a moment like this

i know i’m prolly just over-reacting and being overly pessimistic but i’m almost over the edge alr. seriously need divine intervention to pull up my gpa this sem. because no matter how hard i try, i’ll never be as good. really tired of trying so hard when others can achieve what i can with just half the effort…its an unfair world.

cui skin + cui hair + cui eyebags + cui results
shall emonemo at one corner now. thanks to all who cared(: maybe by the end of next week when some project and presentions are over, i’ll be in a better mood.

happy birthday love<3

venue: sun with moon (wheelock)
present: new bag!

there’s something about birthdays that make one excited. its like you’re a small kid once again, eager to open your presents(: glad that don liked the present hahhaha he was so hyped up and couldnt stop exploring his new bag! dinner was my treat and i we went to sun with moon..i loved everything about the restaurant! and we were damn lucky cos we came in right before the crowd so we got the sofa seats:D there’s this partition around the table so it made the whole atmosphere more private.

PHOTOS!

the rest will be up on fb soon. i’m neglecting my accounting quiz omg die die die die.
p.s. i desperately need a trim/haircut!

read at your own risk

totally.no.mood.to.study.at.all.

packed to the max again this weekend. accounting quiz (15% kill me) next wed, bf215 proj, bf214 proj and bf218 proj. gimme a break can!?

the red aunt agony is here again…explains the bad complexion and mood swings. i hate cramps i hate hate hate hate cramps. and i hate to feel at loss about what to do.

 

to you
quit being such a bitch. i can see through you.

housewarming

had a v last minute sleepover at yuanyu’s new house ytd night and we studied till midnight(: listening and singing along to emo soapy love songs while trying to absorb GV12 material was quite productive hahha.

some things never change lol ji cute

her mom looks and talks terribly like my accounting tutor:s confirm long lost sister la. so nice having a new spacious house(: i also want!

get my drift?

you have no idea how glad i am that this week is over. bf 218 and 215 quiz were a pain the ass, studied nonstop since tuesday, made a few mistakes here and there but i’m just relieved its all over now. but my calculating skills have to improve no doubt and must get the brain to roll faster so that i wont lose time analysing the qn too much:/

so with all that over, i practically slacked the remaining friday night away at home. finished watching antm cycle 12 on youtube yay! modelling seems so fun and interesting(: arent these girls pretty? but the girl i supported nv win:( SULKS.

gg off for dinner w the cj shooters in a while and i’ll come back to the books when i come back. it feels nice to take breaks:D